misery loves company.

it confuses me as to WHY my own mom seems to be so against me moving.. NOT EVERYONE is privileged to be born to parents who are carpenters/tile layers and a medical production parts worker (so BOTH of their parents ACTUALLY are making money NOT dependant on social security/welfare and dead), so they always have a shot at being supported financially. use your brain injury or wtf is wrong with you as an excuse for your NEGLIGENCE and ENTITLED attitude as a parent- but that's NOT gonna make you an actual decent parent. when parents have their children- the CARING parents want their children to do BETTER than them- not a copy or less than them. i can remember back when i used to live at the burnsville shithole when you still picked me up to go your home because grandma was still alive- you made a comment when you were at my place to pick me up for the weekend about how i had a better apartment than you did. so that tells me you're jealous. PARENTS SHOULD NOT BE JEALOUS OF THEIR OWN DAMN CHILDREN. THEY SHOULD WANT THEM TO BE BETTER THAN THEM. NOT TO BE A CARBON COPY OF THEM EITHER (because misery loves company). which is why i honestly chose the OPPOSITE choice than you would chose and it's landed me a hell of a LOT FARTHER than YOU could ever get in life. i would be perfectly fine not ever seeing or hearing from you EVER again. partly because part of me believes you have the worst things in mind for me- which is why you held me in front of you while my dad was drunk and angry and abusive.. you've NEVER taken accountability for that ridiculous excuse of "parenting" in my WHOLE LIFE. EVEN the man who ALMOST killed me took accountability for the accident and APOLOGIZED. YOU.. you have NEVER apologized to me or even acknowledged it- the ONLY reason why i know what happened is because of the dreams i had around the time of my last surgery on my bowel and intestines to remove the blockage- REMINSCING EXACTLY what happened. YES.. THE WHOLE INCIDENT OF ABUSE WAS CONDONED BY MY WHOLE FAMILY. it was like God was trying to explain to me THE TRUTH AND CAUSE for the shit i was going through. i hope he takes YOU COMPLETELY OUT OF MY LIFE since you obviously have NOTHING but bad intentions for me. i've noticed my facebook list is shorter as of late, i don't see many people from the town i grew up in on my list anymore- that tells me they more than likely defriended me because i don't have as much of an accepting and tolerating attitude to me recognizing your negligence and they don't know what to say to me because NOTHING condones the shit YOU are RESPONSIBLE for. whatever. i'd rather not have those people on my friend list because they were nosey cunts.. that's the ONLY reason why they ever pretended to give a shit about me.. so they'd have something to talk about with each other. screw them ALL and screw you too.